Spring Blossom, Autumn Sorrows

OMG my blog is dead and closing soon ><

2007-01-05T22:16:00.000+08:00

HEYYZ EVERYONE XD

uhh, didn't blog for quite awhile `cause I couldn't get into blogger using my computer A.G.A.I.N.

*groans*

SO... I have to wait until I can use the OTHER computer to blog >< kinda lame I know.

Hmm... I was thinking of shutting down this blog cause its no use keeping a DEAD blog.

SOOOO...

I HEREBY ANNOUNCE THAT THIS BLOG WILL SOON BE DEAD AND CLOSED SO DO NOT EXPECT ME TO UPDATE THAT REGULARLY *if at all*

Great, now that's done, I can go talk about somehting else....

Oh yea, new year, new resolutions and stuffs, and of course, NEW TEACHERS =D

So, this year our form teacher is quite nice by my errr, standards? err humourous definately. blahblahblah =D the works

Kay la, there's nothing much for me to say here, so i'll just sign off bah =D

tata

__mel

2006-12-25T01:30:00.000+08:00

Koped this from Song Yan's blog =D

1. NAME A FRIEND WHO'S NAME STARTS WITH THE LETTER "B".
Benjamin Lem

2. NOW NAME SOMETHING THAT REMINDS YOU OF THAT PERSON.
Books ><

3. WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?
no idea.

4. WERE YOU A LEGO-MANIAC WHEN YOU WERE LITTLE?
uh hellooo? no luh, i wasn't

5. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF "REALITY" TV?
its kinda nice to watch ehehehehe ^.^

6. DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?
uh. if you mean bite on them.. then yes if i'm at home =D

7. DO YOU HAVE CURLY HAIR?
nope =D my mom does though

8. WHAT IS THE NEXT CONCERT YOU ARE GOING TO?
how should I know?

9. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR KEYBOARD?
black black and more black

10. WHO IS NUMBER TWO ON YOUR SPEED-DIAL?
uh, my dad =) <33

11. FAVORITE CARTOON:
uh, cartoon arh... *thinks hard* *blank* I prefer anime

12. WHAT COLOR'S YOUR EYES?
hazel-lish in colour

13. LAST CD YOU LISTENED TO THE WHOLE WAY THROUGH?
JJ's Cao Cao

14. MOST RANDOM THING YOU HEARD IN THE PAST 72 HOURS?
that weilin hates scary chain mails =x

15. LAST MOST RECENT PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
uh, my mom, to ask her about what type of minced meat to buy at NTUC =D

16. HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE DONNIE DARKO?
what on earth is THAT?

17. DO YOU HAVE TO WORK TOMORROW?
nope

18. ANY BUMPER STICKERS ON YOUR CAR?c
ar? what car?

19. CAN YOU SING THE ALPHABET BACKWARDS?
.rubbish, come on lah, since when did i learn the alphabet?

20. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A HELICOPTER?
nope unfortunately =(

21. ARE YOU AN ONLY CHILD?
yesyesyesyesyes >=( i want an elder brother luh

22. DO YOU PREFER ELECTRIC OR MANUAL PENCIL SHARPENER?
uh, electric bah?

23. WHAT'S YOUR STAND ON HUNTING?
its cruel man =(

24. IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?
how do I know? I can't see into the future can I?

25. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Hmmm well, sometimes I DO find it a little ... ugly ><

26. LAST FRUIT EATEN?
don't remember liao. its a longlonglonglonglong time ago

27. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, "I LOVE YOU" AND MEANT IT?
today, I told my mother that =D AND I DO MEAN IT

28. IS ELVIS STILL ALIVE?
you dumb or something

29. DO YOU CRY AT WEDDINGS?
nope

30. WHAT SHOULD YOU BE DOING RIGHT NOW
?homework, duh

31. ARE BLONDES DUMB?
uhhhhh...

32.WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU CHATTED TO?
*i'm assuming that its refering to online...* Grace

33. WHAT TIME IS IT?
12.36 A.M.

34. DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?
mel, mona, mona lisa, melly, mellu, asylum ...etcetcetc

35. LAST ALCOHOLIC DRINK.
*forgot*

36. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WERE IN A CAR?
yesterday *well, more appropriately in a taxi luh*

37. DO YOU PREFER BATHS OR SHOWERS?
baths bah

38. IS SANTA CLAUSE REAL?
I used to think he does exist, but that was before I realised that I never DO get any presents that I want >=(

39. WOULD YOU LIKE TO DANCE WITH ME?
who's the "me" refering to?

40. ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?
sorta

41. WHO'S THE YOUNGEST ONE IN THE FAMILY?
me. duh.

42. CRUNCHY OR CREAMY PEANUT BUTTER?
i hate peanut butter

43. CAN YOU CRACK YOUR NECK?
i don't know how to

44. HAVE YOU EVER RIDDEN IN AN AMBULANCE?
nope

46. IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE?
don't know, guess so

47. ARE YOU A HEAVY SLEEPER?
hmm i guess so bah. doorbell ringing can't wake me up.

48. DO YOU LIKE YOUR LIFE?
uhh okok bahh

49. IS YOUR NAME ALAN?
wth? rubbish

50. ARE YOU PSYCHIC?
rubbish of course not

51. HOW OFTEN DO YOU GO TO THE MALL?
quite, just went there today

52.Have you ever licked the back of a CD to try to get it to work?
huh? NOOOOOO

53.What's the largest age difference between yourself and someone you're dating?
uh, never dated before

53.Ever been in a car wreck?
nope

54.Were you popular in high school?
Uhhhhhhh I'm definately not popular bah? high school... does River Valley count as one?

55.Have you ever been on a blind date?
naw

56.Are looks important?
to a certain extent yes

57.Do you have any friends that you've known 10 years or more?
uh, MY MOM =D

58.By what age would you like to be married?
Haven't even thought of it

59.Have you ever made a mistake?
When?

60.Are you a good tipper?
hmm, I don't really tip lah, but then, sometimes I give about a dollar worth of tips? Soooo no.

61.What's the most you have spent for a haircut?
I've never paid for my haircut by myself

62.Have you ever had a crush on a teacher?
never

63.Have you ever peed in public?
O.o ?!?!

64.Would you tell your parents if you are gay?
uh, if you mean the sexual preferences then ... aiya come on luh, I'm not even a guy la. how to be gay? lame.

65.Beer, wine or hard liquor?
none of the above for me please

66.Do you have any phobias?
uh, i'm afriad of THUNDERS AND LIGHTNING =x
67.What are you plans for the future?
guess i'll be a famous piano player or maybe a piano teacher bahh =D

68.Do you walk around the house naked?
come on luh, you think?

69.Hair colour you like on someone you're dating?
hmm, that person's natural hair colour

70.What do you do as soon as you walk in the house?
take off shoes? naw, I take them off before I go in.First thing that i'll do is to put my shoes in the cupboard

71.Do you like horror or comedy?
I like comedy, but watching horror once in awhile is quite... refreshing =D

72.Are you missing anyone?
yes, my 1Blizzard and RvCC people =D

73.If you weren't straight, what person of the same sex would you do?
wth is this?

74.Where do you want to live when you are old?
somewhere where there's beautiful scenery AND *most importantly* WHERE MY FRIENDS ARE

75.Who is the person you can count on most?
QQ, that's for sure =D

76.What did you dream last night?
Forgot liao, but I think it has something to do with the RvCC people... hmmmm =x

77.What is your favourite sport to watch?
I don't watch sport.

78.What is your favourite alcoholic drink?
never drink much before, so don't know

79.Non alcoholic drink?
uh, COKE and PEACH TEA <33

80.Do you sing in the shower?
not for quite awhile liao

81.Have you ever been arrested?
nope

82.What is your favourite holiday?
CHRISTMAS =D

83.Would you ever get plastic surgery?
nopenopenope

84.Have you ever caught a fish?
nope

Quiz

2006-12-15T23:05:00.000+08:00

Level 1

[ ] smoked a cigarette
[ ] smoked a cigar
[ ] done weed
[ ] kissed a member of the same sex
[x] drank alcohol - a tiny sip only =D
SO FAR: 1

Level 2

[x] been in love - still am, with my parents =) duh
[ ] been dumped
[ ] shoplifted
[ ] been fired
[ ] been in a fist fight
SO FAR: 2

Level 3

[ ] snuck out of a parent's house
[x] had feelings for someone who didn't have them back - uh, obviously? =x
[ ] been arrested
[ ] made out with a stranger
[ ] gone out on a blind date
SO FAR: 3

Level 4

[x] had a crush on an older person
[x] skipped school - skipped jap for cca does count, right?
[ ] slept with a co-worker
[x] seen someone/something die - a poor little bird when I was in pri 3 ='(
SO FAR: 6

Level 5

[ ] had/have a crush on one of your FRIENDSTER friends
[ ] been to Paris
[ ] been to Spain
[x] been on a plane - like duh again?
[ ] thrown up from drinking
SO FAR: 7

Level 6

[x] eaten Sushi - yeppp!
[ ] been snowboarding
[ ] met someone BECAUSE of myspace
[ ] been mosh pitting - wad on earth is this?
SO FAR: 8

Level 7

[ ] been in an abusive relationship
[x] taken pain killers - panadol
[x] love/like someone right now - waddya think? ><
[ ] laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
[ ] made a snow angel
SO FAR: 10

Level 8

[ ] had a tea party
[ ] flown a kite
[x] built a sand castle - long long time ago
[x] gone puddle jumping - *same as above*
[ ] played dress up
SO FAR: 12

Level 9

[ ] jumped into a pile of leaves
[ ] gone sledding
[x] cheated while playing a game - oops =x
[x] been lonely - who hasn't?
[x] fallen asleep at work/school - at MOELC =x `cause I was too tired
SO FAR: 15

Level 10

[x] used a fake/someone else's ID - my dad's
[x] watched the sunset - at my own home =D
[ ] felt an earthquake
[ ] killed a snake
SO FAR: 17

Level 11

[x] been tickled - *duh to the power or dunno how many million*
[ ] been robbed/vandalized
[ ] robbed someone
[x] been misunderstood - *duh*
[ ] pet a reindeer
SO FAR: 19

Level 12

[x] won a contest - storytelling when i was in P1 =D
[ ] been suspended from school
[ ] had detention
[ ] been in a car/motorcycle accident - almost
SO FAR: 20

Level 13

[ ] had/have braces
[ ] eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
[x] had deja vu - once only though, felt as though i've been at that shopping mall, but nada, I didn't
[ ] danced in the moonlight
SO FAR: 21

Level 14

[ ] hated the way you look
[ ] witnessed a crime
[ ] pole danced
[x] questioned your heart - questioned whether I've made a mistake of buying something
[ ] been obsessed with post-it notes
SO FAR: 22

Level 15

[ ] squished barefoot through the mud
[x] been lost - once when I was young
[ ] been to the opposite side of the world
[x] swam in the ocean - when I was young
[ ] felt like you were dying
SO FAR: 24

Level 16

[x] cried yourself to sleep - recently
[x] played cops and robbers - when I was young
[x] recently coloured with crayons/coloredpencils/markers - bookmark homework
[ ] sang karaoke
[ ] paid for a meal with only coins
SO FAR: 27

Level 17

[x] done something you told yourself you wouldn't - cheat when I was doing my homework
[ ] made prank phone calls
[ ] laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
[ ] kissed in the rain
SO FAR: 28

Level 18

[ ] written a letter to Santa Clause
[ ] been kissed under a mistletoe
[x] watched the sun set with someone you care/cared about - my RvCC friends =)
[x] blown bubbles - like duh
[ ] made a bonfire on the beach - want to but nope
SO FAR: 30

Level 19

[ ] crashed a party
[ ] have traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people
[x] gone roller skating/ blading - my favourite sport
[x] had a wish come true - =D
[ ] humped a monkey - WTH?
SO FAR: 32

Level 20

[x] worn pearls - my mom's
[ ] jumped off a bridge
[ ] screamed "penis" at a football game.
[ ] swimming with dolphins - I WISH <33
SO FAR: 33

Level 21

[ ] got your tongue stuck to a pole/freezer/ice cube
[ ] kissed a fish[ ] worn the opposite sexes clothes
[ ] Sat on a roof top
SO FAR: 33

Level 22

[x] screamed at the top of your lungs - cheering competition
[ ] can do a one-handed cartwheel
[ ] talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
[x] stayed up all night - yep, RvCC chalet's first night lor
SO FAR: 35

Level 24

[ ] picked and ate an apple right off the tree
[ ] climbed a tree
[ ] had/been in a tree house
[x] are scared to watch scary movies alone
SO FAR: 36

Level 25

[ ] believe in ghosts
[ ] have/had more then 30 pairs of shoes
[ ] gone streaking
[ ] been in jail
SO FAR: 36

Wooo, 36, not bad I guess ><

3 ppl i want to do this:

1) Weilin!
2 & 3) Anyone who wants to do this

CHOCOLATE! faints

2006-12-15T01:30:00.000+08:00

omgomgOMG

I'm totally in lurvvv ....

not with a who, but with a WHAT =D

and i'm pleased to tell you that its....

*drum roll please! =D*

LG's CHOCOLATE KG800!!!!!!! <3<3<3 *freaks out and shrieks excitedly*

OMGOMGOMG *gushes excited*
its like, so be-yoo-ti-fullll do you know that?! :O

gosh, i can't wait for my already rotting handphone to completely rot off its hinges
*glances around guiltily*
Don't tell my parents I said that =x They'll do nothing short of killing me `cause to them I already have a good enough phone...

BUTBUTBUT I still want a new one, my handphone is like, 3 years old?
*cue happy birthday song*
Its second-hand, in case you still don't know or can't figure it out =x

Well, though its beautiful and gorgeous and ooh-la-la and everything, I'll definately NEVER get it. Take a look at the following factors:

1) Its like so damn freaking EXPENSIVE
2) Its functions are like... hmm lemme think, not much really. =xx

ANDDDD... LAST BUT NOT LEAST!

3) Its like, exteremely sensitive *OVER-sensitive if I might say so myself* and thus will not be that user-friendly *oof*

BOTTOMLINE: Ohwell... guess I'll have to look at other phones, don't I? =d

Now, see how kind i am? >< jkjk =)

2006-12-13T21:53:00.000+08:00

LALALA.

Kayy. Now, since I have received like, 10?, people asking me to like just update my
blog `cause its like, super dead. Wells. Here I am, updating. HAH.

See what a nice nice person I am? You people want me to update and poof, here I
am, updating. =) *wipes a tear away from the corner of my eye*

Actually, the reason why I didn't update all these while was because of my
computer. It didn't have the .. uh... cookies? That was needed blahblahblah. So, I
couldn't log into blogger until I finally reformated by stupid computer. Then tada! I
can blog again =))

Hmm... I guess its a little bit too obvious that I just changed the blogskin again!
Lol, got a little bit sick of seeing pink all the time. Hmmm....

Wellllll....Anyway, there really isn't much to blog about. Even if there is, I just
keep finding myself VOID OF TIME. urghhh...

I'm left with like, a ton of homework when I'm supposed to have finished them
before the chalet =o ooops.

From what I've been hearing from everyone, it seems as though HeyMaths is being
left undone. Haha, well, I haven't do yet either. Now trying my very best to finish

Urgh, I badly need someone to talk to... but there isn't anyone available. sobs. ohwells. It just seems like nobody's free for me to rant and say everything and talk to... =( This feeling of bottling up everything sux. Plus, my dearest weilin isn't in Singapore! *sobs* Wells. can't wait. She's coming back tomorrow. Then I can bombard her with questions of Japan!!! <333 lolz

*well, the post was all written on the 11th but then my dear comp HANGED so tada, i'm posting all these backdated things like, 3 days later? O.O*

2006-10-14T22:44:00.000+08:00

Sighhh....
Life sucks...Why. you may ask?Well....It just does.
Lifesuckslifesuckslifesucks...
Today we had RV open house..and we were supposed to do shifts.But guess what?I stayed for both shifts...lolx
Was so tired today. And i don't know why somemore...It was like,after i walked towards the bus-stop, i suddenly felt this huge sense of weariness just piling up on my back.Seriously, it scares me.I wonder what happened today that caused me to feel this way.
Thinking back, there wasn't really much thing that we were doing.Doing a little bit or "art" on Adobe Photoshop*doodling more likely*and sitting there, and helping Jia Li to crap abit to one or two parents.Sigh...
My crappy photoshop work got "displayed" today on the projector.wahhhhh. =Xmixed feelings about that....
Anyway, back to the topic.....
So why do i feel so tired?I don't know either....It just those type of..."bone-weary" tired..like i'm so tired with the world....and with everything...
Sighs, 1Blizzard has fallen apart.And now we have another crap chalet to bring us back again.Like, WOW? O.o
I tell you, this time's chalet?I won't be going... Its not that i don't wanna go, but ...but its just that...
I don't wanna go to some crap chalet that is supposed to bring us all together again,and see us being seperated into `lil cliques here, there, everywhere.June hols' chalet was CRAPPY enough.
I don't want to repeat history again...The most i'll do?Go for a day, and come back....That's how great my endurance for this CRAP is.
I'm sorry,but this is just how i feel.
That 1Blizzard is 1Blizzard no more.
Like we have all been swallowed by some unknown monster, who has been waiting in the darkness, the unknown,waiting and luring us in.When Ms Bose left, I think that was the last strand of defence we had.And now, its gone....Forever....

2006-10-14T22:27:00.000+08:00

YAYZZ
EOY IS FINALLY OVERR!
LOLZ
okayyyy on friday, after the EOYs, Cynthia, JT, Yin Shiuan, QQ and Nat came to my house.to play? nawwws we're gd kids X=) we came to my house to do MUSIC =)))
okay, so we were slacking and loitering around for the first few hours before coming to my house X)shhhhhhhhhhhh =) pretend you didn't know that =)lalalaaaaaaaaaaa
ok feeling reallllyyyy spastic now....maybe its `cause of the darn haze?=X
whatever.
Anyway, feeling really weirdd out now =Xdon't know why though...and i think i'm falling sick...sneezed like...what? 5 times in a row =(
sighhh ... stupid blogger, don't let me in because i don't have the right cookies or whatever...have to resort to asking someone else to help me =(thanks to "annonymous" by the way =)
hahahahahahahhaz, okoki had better go and do something else instead of sitting here blogging...if not you peeps will die from the sickness called "randomness" and "lameness"lol, i'm sugar highhhhh X=)

heh heh heh =)

Random thoughts of mine...

2006-10-04T17:15:00.000+08:00

okayyy,
so this post is, as the title says, gonna be random =X

...
...
...

whatttevveerrrr

sighhs
i'm totally put off

1Blizzard `06 is 1Blizzard `06 no more =(
We're totally seperated...
What with the shifts and everything...
so much has happened...
in just the short time span of one year....

Funny how one year seem so short...and yet so long too...
doesn't it?

Sighh...
E.O.Y officially is gonna kill me...

Geography? Badddd
Science? THE WORST
Maths? =(

English and chinese are my only hope now...

and even THEN ...
i'm not asking for too much,
just a pass and above would suffice...
sighh =X

WHAT am i gonna do about it?!?!
Sigh....
someone...
pull me out of this sticky situation...

Was totally pissed off by something on monday...
and the weather didn't help either...
sighhssss...

How can this be happening to ME of all people?!?!?!

The spirit is willing, but the body is weak......

Venting of Pre-exams stress =X

2006-10-01T19:56:00.000+08:00

Sighhs.....

These few days are just plain hectic hectic hectic...

Can't wait for E.O.Ys to end...
Then can look forward to playing....
Look forward to staying at home slacking....

Arts festival....
Sports day.....
Last day of school....
Holidays....
RvCC chalet....
1Blizzard's chalet.....

How come they are ALL after the exams?!?!?! And so far away to boot....
wth....

Nevermind, must stay optimistic!

...

Gawd, i sound like somebody from some show i can't remember...
All i can remember is that the show very the LAME one =X
And i seriously do NOT wanna become lame....
Literally or otherwise....
=X

Gawd
Gawd
Gawd
Gawd...

TOMORO'S THE START OF E.O.Y!!!
And it starts with GEOGRAPHY~~~~
why?!?!?!

T_T

Never mind....
must strive to get all A1s =)))

Going to J.E. with Qian Qi and several other friends =)
Not to play, mind you....
Its for studying science =))
YAY!
Group studying =))
I just LURVVV group studying =))

Ok guys,
i gtg liaoz =))
Seeya tomoro!
And good luck for all of your subjects for E.O.Ys man~!!!
Strive on!

"Emo" post

2006-09-30T17:45:00.000+08:00

So i'm back again.
who cares?

Ok, so this is gonna be a lil emo.....
So get ready people =)

Sighhh.....
Why must it always be like this?!?!?!
I hate myself.
Seriously.

Was and am listening to An Jing.
WTH
the lyrics are totally....
i don't really like it.

Cause its like reminding me of all the bad times last time.
And talking to Megas isn't helping ....
not that i'm blaming you =)
its just...

nowadays,
so many people are getting all emo and stuffs
either for THAT type of problems or other stuffs
but it still is emo
so ....
yeah

I mean,
take me for example,
i used to think that my judgement would always be correct.
and so i trusted you
i believed in you
i thought you were right all the time

But i was wrong....

you were nothing but a fascade
you were nothing but a lie
you were nothing but an empty shell

full of deceit
full of lies
full of crap
full of rubbish that i don't even wanna name now
for its making me all pissed again...

and all i want to feel now is emo =X
so leave me alone,
please,
the memories of yesterday.....

"Pissified"

2006-09-29T21:10:00.000+08:00

like... wth

i'm so pissed with several things

1) the particular person that was spamming me on the tagboard
2) the fact that some people just don't know how to treat people FAIRLY
3) my life

lemme introduce you one by one:

1) the person that was SPAMMING me on the tagboard.

Well, well, well....

I've only got one thing to tell you

you are seriously childish

i mean, saying those things, albeit the vulgar words, are like...what?

i've heard them when i was in primary school

what with the "you don't even amount to this"

or that

or what EVER

i mean,

gimme a break

you must be at least a sec 1,

so please please please,

stop being childish

at least not at/on my blog.

Thank you very much =X

Ok, next thing on the list:

2) some people just don't know how to treat people FAIRLY:

yes, totally, this TOTALLY explains why i am pissed on fridays.

i mean,

ok,

this person named "x"

its like, "x" always pick on me and my friend "y"

and it like, its not only me and her lahhh

open your eyes and look around the class

almost two-thirds of the girls are liddat

so its not only me and her....

i suggest that you should really stop picking on "y"

thank you very much =)

3) *the most important one of all.................* my LIFE:

i'm SICK of my life

i'm sick of people being so ASSUMING

i'm sick of people being so SCARCASTIC

i'm sick of the fact that Sec 1 life just seem to fly

i'm sick of the fact that life just sucks...

Words...

they are just words....

but still...

the power words have on us...

they are huge...

well, Megas *so he wants to be called =)* you ARE right, it IS a hopeless case. And anyway, you really SHOULD do it... and i'm soo close to knowing who isit =) So there...

Happy reading.

I gtg now =)

Seeya my readers!

Till then, tata!!! =)

Yozz!!

2006-09-24T12:53:00.000+08:00

Heyy you all! =)

Feeling so highhh today!!
*flies to seventh heaven, then returned to earth with loads of goodies! XS*
heh heh heh,
that was lame, i gotta admit.
but still!
yay!!!!

ok, why i'm so happy you might ask?
welllllll
i'm happy cse...
I'M HAPPY
hahahaz =X
sorry, i'm being lame now...
in a total high mood now =X
maybe its `cause of flash project?
sigghhs

my flash gonna die liaoz...
i think the song isn't long enough...
cause my story very long winded
sighhhh

but my fate...
its better than others...
so i must keep quiet ...
shhhhhsss... =(

anyway...
i'm still high over my blog
and my life!
and my luck! =)
welllll only a few would know what i'm talking about...
but still =)
yeah!!!!

hahaz,
but i haven't eaten yet though...
mugging for E.O.Y
school's E.O.Y...
Jap. E.O.Y...
someone help me!
i'm gonna die... =X

(hey, that sorta rhymes! =X)
like...LOL

anyway....
mugging...
mugging...
mugging...
mugging...
when will this mugging period end?!

can't wait... then can go out and par-tay!

oh well, gtg and mug mug mug and do flash flash flash!
and eat, of course =)
see! i'm such a guai1 hai2 zi3,
do homework first
before i eat....

xi1 sheng1 xiao3 wo3,
wan3 cheng3 da4 wo3
......
wadeva,
i'm lame...

i'll go eat now and save you the lameness...
buaiz =)
till we meet again, my readers =)

Heyyaz! So, what do you pple think of this?

2006-09-24T01:08:00.000+08:00

Heyyz!

Nice to see that i've got the time to blog. right?

lolz i sound so zi4 lian4 =) =X

anyway, i'm just gonna post a short one.
just wanted to talk about my new blogskin =) *beams widely*
heh heh heh. ouran high =) love it to bits <33>
but not as much as my CCA =)) *beams EVEN wider*

lolz... yeah... so...
what cha think about this blogskin?
i think its great! =)
you may not agree... =((
well, people have their own opinions...
so yeah... i won't come after you with a knife =)
i'll just come after you with a parang =))
heh heh heh

ok... maybe the lateness has gotten into me.
i sound so hyper just now.
oh well =X

heyz ben, btw, i think ouran is nice and its my choice to put wadeva skin i wanna put ...
so there =)
good luck for you 'o's =)
and btw again, that was an.. um... 'original' name you've got there =X

yeah... so...
just dropping by to talk about my new and improved blogskin =))
don't cha think its nice? =D
hur hur hur =)

oh well, gtg now,
mom's nagging at me to stop blogging
since its the E.O.Y liaoz
so i guess i'll go now =)

bye, my dear and beloved readers! =)

Quicksand? Naw, just some blabbing...

2006-09-13T19:54:00.000+08:00

Seriously, i mean, come ON!

Get out of it =(( Its IMPOSSIBLE.

Irregardless of the amount of proof that you have. From your friends or from your own speculations. You just wished that it was true. But can it be true? Will it be true? Can it COME true?

well, those are the words that kept running around and around, chasing each other in my head.

why?! why?! why?!

why, of all people, must it be him?!

seriously, i don't know why... but i guess...

argh, i don't know.

The problem is, i feel myself being pulled in deeper and deeper everyday. Just a simple smile of his, or just a glance or a chance to meet each other eye-to-eye is enough to keep me happy throughout the whole day.
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The mind and the heart, both are extremely fickle things.
The mind may change even after something had already been decided.
The heart?
Well,
The heart tells you what you really want, what is the utter truth. The only thing that stops your heart from taking over your whole life is your mind. And the mind can be such an irritating thing.

Take for example, this...situation

You are having a hard time trying to decide on this particular topic. Your mind tells you what is the most LOGICAL thing that you should do.

The heart?

Well, lets just say the heart is all about feeling and intuition.

Like me.

Feelings and intuitions.

Sometimes, feelings are so wonderful. They make you feel high, low, happy, sad, whateva.

The point is, now i'm stuck in a dilemma. And the problem is, the dilemma is like quicksand.

You know quicksand?

Well, just for the benefit of those who NEVER read books, quicksand is like... a mixture of sand and water. Well, that's the most SHALLOW defination of quicksand. =S anyway.

Its just sucking me lower and lower every second that i spend struggling and struggling. I try to call out for help, but no one hears me.

Not even you.

That was the saddest thing.

You didn't even know. You couldn't hear. You couldn't understand how it felt like, you only knew i was stuck after i was rescued.

And even then you didn't show any sign that you wished you were the one who rescued me.

I'm being pulled from both ends.

One by my heart.
The other?
By my oh-so-lovely mind.

Sigh...

Sometimes i wish we didn't have minds and solely depended on our heart, our intuition, our feelings.

But of course, God made us with minds, so that we can think clearly.

And sadly, i didn't make good use of my mind. And i didn't think clearly enough.

That was how i got stuck in the first place. =S

I don't know what had gotten over me, but i think that i'm really in too deep.

I really envy some of my classmates. But i can't do anything, no matter how hard i try. =((

All i have to say is, thank you for being there for me when i was down that time.
When i was on the brink of sadness overwhelming me, you were there.
When i wanted to cry out loud and let everyone know how badly i was being hurt, you were there.
When i wanted someone to comfort me, you were there.
When i needed someone's warm and soothing voice, you were there.

All i have to say?

Thank you from the bottom of my heart....

To ALL R.I.G. members!! =) <3

2006-09-10T14:58:00.000+08:00

Ok, this post is specially for the members of R.I.G (Rv Innovative Group)

Well, since most of the people who know that this blog exists are the 1Blizzardians... I'll just fill you guys in.

Well, you guys know that i took part in a robotics competition right? Yeah, well, R.I.G is our chosen name, and we had our preliminaries on Friday and hte actual finals on saturday. Well... um... our name that was use to register our group was RVHS3 and our group number was S241.

Ok, enough of that. Now on to my dear dear lovely members of R.I.G!! =)

Ok, first thing i wanna say? I'm sorry.

I'm totally utterly sorry.

I know its partly my fault that we didn't get anything at all, not even any small awards. *ok, well, not partly, MOSTLY* Well, i just ... i'm just sorry. I know that i'm not that great a leader, so i hereby apologise to you people. If i had accidentally scolded you guys or made you guys pissed or irritated at me , i'm sorry.

Well, i know i've said it alot of times, but i really feel that i have failed as your leader. Gah... i mean, maybe i'm just over-reacting, but when i think of all the hard work that you people had put in and how you guys slogged over the September holidays with me, just to do preperations for NJRC, i'll get guilty. I mean, ok, so its official CCA session, but you still had to go home and finish up all the unfinished work.

Take Qi En for example, on the day JUST before the preliminary round, you had to go to Ju Ying primary and stayed there until 10 plus 11 and still you didn't managed to finish the programming. And then you didn't even get a good night's sleep, cause you reached home at about 10 plus right?

Song Yan, Grace, Yuan Yuan, you people could have gone home straight away after CCA session, but then you had to be dragged here and there just to buy materials for the booth. And Song Yan even had to buy this and that on the night before NJRC. Grace had to bring alot of the materials home, and even Yuan Yuan had to come for CCA even though she's sick.

Haiz, i know i'm just repeating and repeating this long story... but i just want to let you see just how much you have put in.

You don't need a genius to figure out how much hard work that you guys had put in for this.

Well, i just hope that next year, we'll be able to trash everybody else kayyz? Maybe you'll want to change the leader =) Just... work harder next year and WIN! =)

By your leader,

MeLiSsA =)

[ R.I.G. rawks and i <3 it =")">

a lil quiz =)

2006-09-09T22:17:00.000+08:00

LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE.
Name: Melissa Lim
Birth date: 6 sep
Current status: I'm SINGLE!!!! *And i'm proud of being single* =)
Eye colour: hazel
Hair colour: a-quite-light brown
Righty or Lefty: righty!
Zodiac Sign: rooster

LAYER TWO: ON THE INSIDE.
Your heritage: um... a little bit of chinese and peranakan *dun laugh, its totally true* =)
Your fears: um.. quite alot... lets see... *mind blanks*
Your weaknesses: um.... i am a sucker for.... HAPPILY EVER AFTERS!!!
Your perfect pizza: definately hawaiian pizza

LAYER THREE: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW.
Your thoughts first waking up: NJRC!!!!! Gawd!!!!
Your bedtime: earliest 11, my latest wad 4 in the morning
Your most missed memory: computer club sessions during the hols? =)

LAYER FOUR: YOUR PICK.
Pepsi or Coke: COKE! Pepsi got that medicinal taste... blergh...
McDonald's or Burger King: BURGER KING!! >< =)
Single or group dates: group!
Adidas or Nike: don't really care
Lipton tea or Nestea: Lipton! =)
Chocolate or vanilla: VANILLA!
Cappuccino or coffee: Cappuccino, coffee not really my cup of tea >< hahaz

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
Smoke: NEVER NEVER EVER
Curse: if you're talking about cursing someone ill.. no... but if its the other one, then yes ><
Take a shower: um... DUH?!
Have a crush: hehe you think lehz? ok larh, tell you, yep =)
Think you've been in love: i dunno.. totally unsure
Like(d) school: maybe... i only like RV because of RVCC!!! =) <3 *hearts hearts hearts =)*
Want to get married: Should be... only time will tell =)
Believe in yourself: not really larh.... sometimes ... sometimes only! =)
Think you're a health-freak: i don't think so

LAYER SIX: IN THE PAST MONTH.
Drank alcohol: NOPEEE
Gone to the mall: DEFINATELY, who wouldn't? =)
Been on stage: um..... nope...
Eaten sushi: yupps. for my birthday celebration! =)
Gone skating: no...*sadd*
Dyed your hair: no..

LAYER SEVEN: HAVE YOU EVER?
Played a stripping game: are you KIDDING?!
Changed who you were to fit in: I will NEVER DO THIS! =)

LAYER EIGHT
Age you're hoping to be married: Don't know, don't care.... wait till i found someone then say

LAYER NINE: IN A GIRL/GUY.
Best eye colour: hazel!!
Best hair colour: LIGHT BROWN!!! *or at least a type of brown that is obvious*
Short or long hair: hmmm, those type in the middle one... you know? um... take yin shuian for
an example, those type whereby the hair is long but doesn't make him
look like a freaking girl >.<

LAYER TEN: WHAT WERE YOU DOING.
1 minute ago: This, wad else?
1 hour ago: um... eating or bathing bahhz.
4.5 hours ago: Listening to RVCC excos and teacher talk to us at the science center ><
1 month ago: um... don't know, can't remember
1 year ago: if i can't remember what i did one month ago, what for talk about a YEAR ago!?

LAYER ELEVEN: FINISH THE SENTENCE.
I love: someone =) hehez =)
I feel: um.. tired??
I hate: nothing right now, for everything seems great today!
I hide: from the fact that i can't have what i want =(
I miss: someone bahhz
I need: SLEEP SLEEP AND MORE SLEEP!!

LAYER TWELVE
WEILIN! i wanna sabotage you =) no larh, kidding...

heyyaz! a nice quiz for you =)

2006-09-09T22:06:00.000+08:00

well... this is a quiz i saw on xu qin's blog... enjoy! =)

LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE.
Name: Melissa Lim
Birth date: 6 sep
Current status: I'm SINGLE!!!! *And i'm proud of being single* =)
Eye colour: hazel
Hair colour: a-quite-light brown
Righty or Lefty: righty!
Zodiac Sign: rooster

LAYER TWO: ON THE INSIDE.
Your heritage: um... a little bit of chinese and peranakan *dun laugh, its totally true* =)
Your fears: um.. quite alot... lets see... *mind blanks*
Your weaknesses: um.... i am a sucker for.... HAPPILY EVER AFTERS!!!
Your perfect pizza: definately hawaiian pizza

LAYER THREE: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW.
Your thoughts first waking up: NJRC!!!!! Gawd!!!!
Your bedtime: earliest 11, my latest wad 4 in the morning
Your most missed memory: computer club sessions during the hols? =)

LAYER FOUR: YOUR PICK.
Pepsi or Coke: COKE! Pepsi got that medicinal taste... blergh...
McDonald's or Burger King: BURGER KING!! >< =)
Single or group dates: group!
Adidas or Nike: don't really care
Lipton tea or Nestea: Lipton! =)
Chocolate or vanilla: VANILLA!
Cappuccino or coffee: Cappuccino, coffee not really my cup of tea ><>
LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
Smoke: NEVER NEVER EVER
Curse: if you're talking about cursing someone ill.. no... but if its the other one, then yes ><
Take a shower: um... DUH?!
Have a crush: hehe you think lehz? ok larh, tell you, yep =)
Think you've been in love: i dunno.. totally unsure
Like(d) school: maybe... i only like RV because of RVCC!!! =) <3 hearts =")*
Want to get married: Should be... only time will tell =)
Believe in yourself: not really larh.... sometimes ... sometimes only! =)
Think you're a health-freak: i don't think so

LAYER SIX: IN THE PAST MONTH.
Drank alcohol: NOPEEE
Gone to the mall: DEFINETELY, who wouldn't? =)
Been on stage: um..... nope...
Eaten sushi: yupps. for my birthday celebration! =)
Gone skating: no...*sadd*
Dyed your hair: no..

LAYER SEVEN: HAVE YOU EVER?
Played a stripping game: are you KIDDING?!
Changed who you were to fit in: I will NEVER DO THIS! =)

LAYER EIGHT
Age you're hoping to be married: Don't know, don't care.... wait till i found someone then say

LAYER NINE: IN A GIRL/GUY.
Best eye colour: hazel!!
Best hair colour: LIGHT BROWN!!! *or at least a type of brown that is obvious*
Short or long hair: hmmm, those type in the middle one... you know? um... take yin shuian for an example, those type whereby the hair is long but doesn't make him look like a freaking girl >.<

LAYER TEN: WHAT WERE YOU DOING.
1 minute ago: This, wad else?
1 hour ago: um... eating or bathing bahhz.
4.5 hours ago: Listening to RVCC excos and teacher talk to us at the science center ><
1 month ago: um... don't know, can't remember
1 year ago: if i can't remember what i did one month ago, what for talk about a YEAR ago!?

LAYER ELEVEN: FINISH THE SENTENCE.
I love: someone =) hehez =)I feel: um.. tired??
I hate: nothing right now, for everything seems great today! Oh... cept for a certain damper that has totally ruin my mood... otherwise.. yeah
I hide: from the fact that i can't have what i want =(
I miss: someone bahhz
I need: SLEEP SLEEP AND MORE SLEEP!!

LAYER TWELVE
WEILIN! i wanna sabotage you =) no larh, kidding...

Haiz... sad sad entry...

2006-09-06T22:03:00.000+08:00

Ok, thats it.

I am like, really sick of life right now... its like, whatever i do, i just can't prove it to everyone that I CAN DO IT!

I seriously dont know what i'm saying now... i just felt so down suddenly. Everyone seems so ... dead and dull and SAD these few days. I mean, even the most energetic and hyper people are now so sad and down. I just can't understand how this can happen. I thought that they would always stay happy, but i guess its not meant to be...

To add on to the sadness floating and drifting around, there's still the fact that something which i hoped will happen did NOT happen! Arghhh =(

*Well, as to what that is, go guess, i'm not telling...*

Never mind, i think i'll just end here now! =) I'll post another one after this, a post more happier and lively... Not like this... this dumb, sad, pessimistic entry. Like, puh-lease, if i don't cheer up and make people happy, who will? =)

ok... that was a little zi4 kua1, but so what? As long as i enjoy myself, who cares if it was just that little bit of self-praising? >.<

Whatever...

careless? or just plain stupid? >.<

2006-08-25T21:50:00.000+08:00

one word: FREAK!

haizhaiz... wonder wad my life is going to be like, if i am everyday haunted by people =(

should i?
should i not?
what should i do?!?!?!

haiz.... sometimes, seeing weilin, i feel that she's much luckier and happier then me..... she doesn't have to deal with the fact that she has to see him everyday.... it makes her forget what had made her heart tear. For me? My heart didn't tear, just that i am very irritated.... I don't know what to say....

Anyway, push that aside *pooooooooof*

YEAH! I'm sooooooo happy =) today's CCA session was pure and utter FUN! =))=)) <3>!!

heh! it was like..... hahaz, [playing and playing] hehe =)) no lar... just slacking after the journals were *FINALLY* done~!! It was soooo stressful lar, when we were 'rushed and rushed and rushed' by the dateline! HAHAHAZ

haizx, guess i was too careless, leaving my beloved com club t-shirt IN SCHOOL!~!~!~ ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

nvm, going to sch tomoro, so maybe, just MAYBE *i sincerely hope soooo~!!* that it will STILL be int eh computer lab.

*fingers crossed till they are turning blue =S*

i'll end it here, soooooo

tata!!

Wow.. the tiredness... makes pple go 'mad' =E

2006-08-20T01:33:00.000+08:00

I just wanna say a big Thank yous to ALL those people who tagged!!!!!!!!!!!

A big THANKS and a huge hug~! hahaaz =))

Hmm.... life currently isn't that good afterall....

But nvm! I can go to the arcade and kick some bad guy's *** and crash some cars!!!!

Lolz, ok... so that was a little out of the ordinary... and maybe a little rough... hahaz But anyway... just wanted to kill some boredom right now... freaking bored now....Its 1.32 in the morning of Sunday, 20th of August...hahaz..... Everyone's asleep now.. nothing to do...just chatting around with several people like Weilin XD and uncle malcolm...who just refuses to tell me anything =X hahaz He's lips are tightly SEALED hahahahahahaz kekekekeke..

O...k... the tiredness of staying up late must be getting into me.... why else would i be so damn crazy and high right now? Hmmmmz.... or maybe i am just mad.... This post is utter crap.... :X Ahhhhhhh.... someone.... keep me sane...

Hmmm...
*Yawnss...* oh well.. getting tired liaoz... so ... buaiz and nitez everyone! Don't forget that we'll be having drama on monday~! hahahaz

Seeyaz! and TATA =)

Once again, a huge thanks~~!

Here's the replies to those who tagged X))

Yi Jun: kaykayz! I won't be so stressed!! thanks for being.. concerned! =)
Wei Lin =): Heyyz! Oh hime sama XD ! hahaz XD Cheer up and be happies kayzz?
Shirleen: Heyyaz! Don't worry, i'll still be your dear mama =D!!!
Xu Qin: Heloz! Hmmm... don't worry.... you'll be my..... daughter-in-law? hehe jkjking~! XS
CHERIE!!!: lolzx don't be jealous! i'll go tag on your blog right now XD hahaz Smile! Don't cry!~! hahaz

lolz.... weirddd...

2006-08-17T17:45:00.000+08:00

Heyyaz!

Know what? i'm in school, blogging! HAHAHAZ well... i'm just posting a short one.... i'm totally stressed out now lah.... S.T.R.E.S.S.E.D, in case you don't know how to spell.... Really, i'm just totally, urgh..... what with the NJRC compettition just around the corner and all the preperations that i have to do for it... just thinking about it makes me dizzy...

=S

Well...

I just can't believe it! Three cheers and a MILLION thanks to qianqi and ____!!!! Thank youz~~! Thank you Thank you Thank you THANK YOU!!! LOLZ! Gonna totally lovveeeee my birthday present from them! kekekekekekeke....

.........

Oh well, guess i'm being lame liaoz, buaiz and seeya~! *to those who read my blog =) extremely gratified* =D

...

ps.fine. so this entry was longer than i thought... so what? =D=D=D

Un-high? high? i can't decide.. =S

2006-08-07T20:27:00.000+08:00

Haiz... sooo un-high now. Was so happy just now. You know why? Cause i found out that i've got a friend who has the exact same chinese name as me!!! Whoohoo! lolz, sorry for sounding so weird... but its like... haizxxx when i heard someone's comment about me, its like.... i couldn't believe that that was how people thought of me... I am totally caring! *hehehehe* But people just don't believe me! So how can i proof myself? Its like, i hate people having a wrong idea of me, but its just that, i can't change the way how people think.. So i'm very very uneasy with the fact that someone who is quite quite quiteeee close to me thinks of me that way... HAIZ nvm, must cheer up for my friend's sake. If not i'll be condemmed again =D *kekekekeke*

Haiz.....

Another thing, i'm now stuck in between two things. And i just CAN'T DECIDE! AHHHHHH.... i'm going mad... how i wish that things was how it was at the begining of the year when i didn't even know anybody from my secondary school. Then everything will be a-okay~!!

Some people say that i have violent/drastic mood swings. Do i? Hmmmmmmmmmm

Weird... i'm feeling quite detached from the world right now, wonder if i am falling sick emotionally or physically... Hmmm....

Freakk!!! I feel so yuan wang! Its totally not me only lah! The rest of my group members also chose him what! Its NOT only me! I know....... but still..... i mean, its healthier for me to mix around wad! Do you know that my social circle has already been shrunked to jt, qq and you.... I feel extremely isolated from everyone you know? Its like... its like no one wants to befriend me already......

oh well.. i guess i'll just end this post on a happy note then =D=D Guess what? I'm going to my friend's house tomoro after National day celebrations at our school! YAY~~~~ fun and laughter to look forward to =D

tata =D

heyz, i'm so enthu you know? =)

2006-08-06T17:42:00.001+08:00

HEYHEYZ!

Wow, i just realised that ever since having this new blog, its like, i became damn enthu about it. Everyday start posting a new entry... hmm... i wonder why... Anyway, I can't believe it! Next Tuesday i'm going to the Bukit Timah Nature Reserve with my friends! *gosh, i can't believe that i am so excited over that silly thing, but still.... =)* Actually, i'm more excited about the fact that we can wear red t-shirt to school on that day, cause its NATIONAL DAY~ hahahz, I wish i had the time to go back to my primary school, but its like, i don't think anyone would be going, would they? Everyone has their own things to do... Sigh... its like, ever since everyone is seperated into different secondary schools, a lot of things changed. Its like every one has completely forgotten about the wonderfull memories that we had last time... and now, after like, what? Seven to eight months? We've all become closer to our secondary school classmates and friends then our previous primary school mates. Haiz, don't you think that is sad? I mean, people just come and go in your life, only those people who has a great influence on you will be remembered by you.... Don't cha agree? Anyway, i think i gtg... have to continue on my japanese composition.. =)=S

Tata =)

YAY! I've got a new bloggy! =)

2006-08-05T17:32:00.000+08:00

Heyz! So how guys? How do you like my new blog? I did this all by myself =) so there ben 0=) hahaz, kidding.... =) no offense kayz? Well.... haiz, recently, alot of things happened and its like, everyone is getting sick and tired of life i guess. Even me... i mean, there's so many things that caused me to keep my eyes wide open and really LOOK at what is actually happening all around me. I don't know what made me say that, but i just really feel that way. Hmmmm.... well, i just really hope that this blog will not take up all my blogging time away from my original one. If not that one will be 'neglected' and then it would have been a waste of time trying to do that, won't it? =)